My fellow Red Wings once told me I was very courageous for my station. Courage is acting despite fear, and thus I suppose I have many weighing on my shoulders.
I am afraid of... once again falling back into being untrue to myself. Being untrue to my own heart, and letting what others ask of me rule my heart and mind. I do not want to bend to another's will while sacrificing my own morals again, Dark Knight or Paladin.
I fear someone forcing my hand on an innocent. I await the day my kingdom sees that I am but a soldier wearing a crown, unfit for rule, and I am terrified of it. I fear for my brother, my people, my parents, passed on: do I uphold their legacy well?
But perhaps most of all, I fear losing Rosa and Kain. Rosa, in my failings to protect her, and Kain, in a possessed mind. The thought of either falling from my hand is a nightmare that reoccurs far too often.
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I am afraid of... once again falling back into being untrue to myself. Being untrue to my own heart, and letting what others ask of me rule my heart and mind. I do not want to bend to another's will while sacrificing my own morals again, Dark Knight or Paladin.
I fear someone forcing my hand on an innocent. I await the day my kingdom sees that I am but a soldier wearing a crown, unfit for rule, and I am terrified of it. I fear for my brother, my people, my parents, passed on: do I uphold their legacy well?
But perhaps most of all, I fear losing Rosa and Kain. Rosa, in my failings to protect her, and Kain, in a possessed mind. The thought of either falling from my hand is a nightmare that reoccurs far too often.